FML

FML is one phrase I told myself almost everyday.

I can’t really endure any longer.

 

“Money makes the world go round.” This was what my friend said

a few days back. I have no reason to say this is untrue.

 

In my life, money really makes a huge different.

I need to work, I need to work more, I need more money

are always revolving around me. These are things which I

can’t take off from my life. Not that I really love money that much

but I need to love them because I love my family.

 

With money, life would be easier because I won’t be home-phobic.

Phobic that something might happen again at home and I have to run

out of house again to calm myself down. I hate to run out of house in

the middle of the night ( It’s freaking cold sometimes) but I have no choice.

Sometimes at home, I feel colder than the night.

 

Because of ‘money’, I am always troubled if I should really further my studies

to the university. I know I can work while I study but that is not enough

for everything and everything. How I really wish I can work now and help

my mom. I hate to see her working long hours for that few hundred dollars.

It makes me feel useless especially when I don’t earn enough or I don’t

score enough.

 

Okay, enough of my ranting.

FML